very well said!

April 15th, 2007 by golden-pond

**articles from Youngblood (Philippine Daily Inquirer’s Opinion section, April 14, 2007)**

**since i couldn’t find an internet version of these articles, i decided to copy them instead… not much sweat, actually… **

**hope you’d get inspired as much as i did**

**rock on!**

**p.s. magkakahiwalay talaga ang paragraphs nito, kaso pagpaste ko, wah, ayan na, nagdikit-dikit na… geez…**

TO LIVE FOR OTHERS

Ma. Luisa Jimenez

I once asked my mother in jest what her greatest contribution to national development was. She replied seriously, “I raised you.” To her, one can play an important role by giving birth to, caring for, educating and forming one’s children. That answer made me realize that something so simple can make a great contribution to nation building. And I thought to myself, what could someone as I am contribute? It would be easy to give a beauty-pageant answer, such as “study well.” Fortunately, this is not a beauty pageant. Things such as studying well and developing one’s abilities are basic responsibilities of the youth today, and they should not be taken for granted, of course. But these are already expected of every young Filipino. What more should be expected of us? In our economics class, a student who was assigned to give a report one day was told that she would have to postpone her presentation. Her classmates, knowing how much effort she had put into preparing her report, complained to our teacher. I will always remember his reply: “Girls, don’t ever complain that you worked hard, or use that as an excuse. That’s expected of you as my students. Ang tanong, nag-aral na ba kayo ng susunod na chapter?” We the youth are not only enjoined to do our homework. We owe it to our country to read that next chapter in advance – to go that figurative extra mile. Our role is to not only fulfill our responsibilities but to ask what more can we do. The United Nations defines the youth as those aged 13 to 25. This sector, our sector, is the most vast, most diverse and most dynamic group. We are idealistic and impressionable, unafraid to voice out our convictions and we are willing to listen to other’s thoughts. We have the time and energy to invest in whatever we deem important. By sheer number and because we are so influential, our every investment on a micro scale can make great ripples on a macro scale. What then is the role of the youth in nation building? Our role is to invest our time, talents, and passion on activities that are truly worthwhile. It doesn’t take a martyr or a million-man revolution to transform society. Take, for example, the increasing popularity of groups such as the graphic designers of Team Manila or one of my favorite bands, Parokya ni Edgar. These people are not dying for the country; in fact, they are living pretty good lives at the moment. They are living and making a living. What makes them distinct is that they are making a living out of popularizing Filipino culture. Although this may seem like a superficial form of nationalism, it has had a great impact on how the youth value their motherland. It has given us renewed pride in our heritage and hope that the Philippines has more to offer. And so, as we do our homework routinely, we should think about how we can go a little bit further to help build the future of our nation. It is not so difficult to do this; the important thing to remember is that we are a part of something bigger than ourselves, cultivating a compassionate awareness of our neighbors’ needs. Simple acts of kindness, the little sacrifices we make every day can cause a vast ripple effect. We are called upon not to die for our country, but to live for others. There begins our humble role in nation building.

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APPEAL TO CONSCIENCE

Reinna Maraya I. Bien

This letter is addressed to celebrities running for public office: What are you doing? Ego and lust for power aside, do you honestly believe you can significantly contribute to the well-being of the country? I mean, really? If you want to help the poor, then start a non-governmental organization that will help them help themselves. Don’t let them forever bank on the screen hero’s promise of salvation. You say you want to improve the condition of the Philippine film industry? Then make good movies, don’t run for Senate. Your heart feels for the Filipino sportsmen? Then impart your knowledge and skills to kids who have great athletic potential. Don’t attempt to write laws when you don’t even have a high-school diploma under your belt. I’m sure somebody has said this to you before, but in case you weren’t listening, let me repeat it: You don’t have to be a congressman or a senator to accomplish all those things you claim as your reasons for running. Consider Bono, the lead singer of U2 and humanitarian extraordinaire. Over the years, the Irishman, who was recently knighted, successfully spearheaded a movement that erased the debts of some of the world’s poorest countries. He has campaigned against world poverty, promoted fair trade, raised money for victims of hurricane “Katrina.” He has been nominated for the Nobel Peace Prize twice. And he has accomplished these without holding public office. Why can’t you be smart enough to follow his example? Let me clarify that I didn’t write this to belittle actors in general. I know there are those who took great lengths to prepare themselves before running for office (and by prepare I don’t mean memorizing the “If you vote for me…” speech your assistant made for you, but actually studying and familiarizing yourself with at least the basics of public office). This open letter is an appeal to the conscience of celebrities running for high positions in the government who have no experience in public office or knowledge of the basics of legislation or public administration. Yes, you may have the purest of intentions, but be wise enough to realize that sometimes the desire to do something good isn’t enough; you have to back it up with experience and solid knowledge, too. I know that we are in charge of making our own destiny, but we can’t escape the fact that the laws and policies our leaders make have a significant effect on our future. And as much as I admire your movies and respect your achievements as athletes, I do not want you running my country and my future for me. P.S. I don’t know if you came to the decision to run for office on your own or if you had people making the decision for you, but it’s not yet too late to back out.

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coffee talks

January 29th, 2007 by golden-pond

Spilling the Beans

Coffee. We sip it, slurp it, demand it, flavor it, all while debating its benefits. Drink in these health answers from the caffeine experts.
By Bethany Lye for MSN Health & Fitness

Have you heard the latest news about coffee? It can be hard to keep straight on whether coffee is A, good for you; B, not so good; or C, it depends on who’s drinking it; D, all of the above; or E, none of the above.

It’s enough to make you run out and order a double-shot espresso.

In the interest of coffee drinkers everywhere, here are the latest thoughts from leading researchers about coffee and whether it can enhance—or not—our health. We are “spilling the beans” on who should and shouldn’t be drinking coffee, especially if you suffer from certain conditions.

Coffee and the Dehydration Myth

Scientists define coffee as a “mild diuretic.” Drink it, they say, and you will increase your urine output and likely multiply your number of daily bathroom runs.

Until recently, scientists also generally agreed that drinking coffee causes dehydration. This seems logical: By urinating more often and in greater volume, you’re draining the body of precious fluids, right?

Wrong, according to Lawrence Armstrong, a professor of exercise and environmental physiology at the University of Connecticut.

In 2005, Armstrong and his colleagues conducted an 11-day controlled study of 60 males to examine the body’s response to caffeine intake. For the study’s first six days, all 60 men ingested roughly 226 milligrams of caffeine (the equivalent of two cups of brewed coffee) each day. On the study’s seventh day, the scientists separated the participants into three different groups: Twenty men maintained their present caffeine intake, 20 men doubled their caffeine intake to about 452 milligrams of caffeine (about four cups of coffee) per day, and the remaining 20 men avoided all caffeine until the study’s conclusion. For every participant, researchers monitored 20 different indices of hydration, including variables in the body, blood and urine.

At the end of the experiment, all 60 men still had similar hydration variables, says Armstrong. The study’s results, published in the International Journal of Sports Nutrition and Exercise Metabolism, suggest that drinking moderate amounts of caffeine does not lead to dehydration.

As Armstrong explains it: “Caffeine creates a diuretic effect in the body, this is true. But a diuretic effect is not the same thing as whole body dehydration. What caffeine does is cause a brief increase in urine output followed by a decline.”

Imagine, the scientist says, that you drink a liter of water. In the period immediately following this feat, your urine output will increase and then eventually decline. “Does this mean you are dehydrated?” Armstrong asks.

The answer, of course, is no.

More research must be done to determine if high concentrations of caffeine or chronic coffee consumption leads to dehydration. But in the meantime, coffee drinkers, enjoy your java in moderation, and count each cup of coffee as roughly equivalent to the same amount of water.

Coffee’s Disturbance at Night and Naptime

Caffeinated coffee is a stimulant, and when consumed late in the day it can result in a very restless night of sleep. Studies have found that caffeine can reduce a person’s perceived quality of rest and their total minutes spent in slumber. It also can increase the number of times a person wakes throughout the night. Still, many people choose to drink coffee after dark in hopes of warding off fatigue during graveyard shifts, late nights out and overnight study sessions.

However, the scientific world recently discovered that the effects of caffeine disturb daytime sleep more than nocturnal sleep. If you’re a night owl hoping to recover your rest during daylight—good luck. According to researchers at the University of Montreal, you’ve already got two strikes against you.

In the 2006 study, published in the Journal of Neuropsychopharmacology, Canadian scientists divided 34 moderate caffeine consumers into two groups. Half of the participants followed their normal nocturnal sleep schedule, while the remaining participants altered their sleep patterns to stay awake during the night and then “recover” by sleeping the next morning. All participants consumed either a placebo or 200 milligrams of caffeine in the hours before “bedtime.”

Members of the caffeinated, recovery group slept for a shorter period of time and spent fewer minutes in deep sleep relative to the study’s other participants. Scientists liken this scenario to a biological one-two punch. Caffeine consumption shallows a person’s sleep, thereby making it increasingly difficult to ignore nature’s circadian alarm clock. The end result, it seems, is a relatively uneasy session of recovery sleep.

Reflux Reaction: Coffee Wrongly Blacklisted?

For years, doctors have asked clients suffering from gastroesophageal reflux disease (GERD) to avoid a variety of foods—namely anything spicy, acidic, fatty or fried—in hopes of easing their symptoms. Coffee is on this list because of the belief that it relaxes the trap door to the stomach, thereby allowing acid to travel where it shouldn’t. Recently, however, a few studies have suggested that java’s long-standing blacklist might be unfair.

GERD—also called acid reflux disease—occurs when the stomach’s contents, including stomach juices, flow back into the esophagus. The most common symptom of GERD is heartburn, but other symptoms include nausea, gagging, coughing and hoarseness.

In 2005, Swedish researchers published the results of a study involving more than 3,000 individuals that aimed to evaluate the impact of various lifestyle factors on heartburn. The scientists found that smoking and sodium-rich diets strongly increase a person’s risk for GERD, but consuming coffee, tea and alcohol do not.

Also, just last year in the Archives of Internal Medicine, three Stanford University physicians published the results of a massive literature survey that included GERD studies from around the world, dating as far back as 1975. In this survey, the doctors concluded that there currently is no evidence to support the notion that a strict GERD diet reduces symptoms of heartburn.

What the evidence does support, according to the physicians, is that only two lifestyle changes result in a reduced risk for GERD—losing weight and elevating your head during sleep. Still, this new finding—that diet may have very little to do with heartburn—runs counter to the recommendations of the American College of Gastroenterology, which advocates for a change in eating habits to reduce GERD risk. In general and until more studies prove otherwise, the blacklist remains in place. Many doctors advise that if coffee worsens your GERD—and you all know who you are—avoid it, no matter what the latest survey says.

The Dangers of Decaf for Your Cholesterol

Decaffeinated coffee may be short on caffeine, but it’s got plenty of diptenes—and that may be bad news for your health.

In a three-month study spearheaded by Dr. Robert Superko of the Fuqua Heart Center in Atlanta, scientists randomly assigned 187 volunteers to one of three groups. Sixty-six people drank three to six cups of caffeinated coffee per day, 62 people drank three to six cups of decaffeinated coffee per day, and the remaining 59 people avoided both types of coffee. All coffee drinkers followed specific brewing instructions and drank their coffee black. Meanwhile, the researchers kept tabs on a slew of health statistics, including total cholesterol, markers for HDL and LDL (or “good” and “bad” cholesterol, respectively), and blood pressure.

The results of the study, which Dr. Superko presented to the American Heart Association in 2005, suggest that drinking decaffeinated coffee leads to a rise in bad cholesterol whereas drinking regular coffee does not.

How does the physician explain decaffeinated coffee’s potentially unhealthy side effect? “The species of bean used for decaf is different,” says Dr. Superko. “Decaf is usually made out of the robusta bean and regular coffee out of the arabica bean.” Unlike the arabica bean, robustas have a relatively high concentration of fats called diptenes, and these fats contribute to the increase in blood cholesterol, he says.

And while this rise in cholesterol is scientifically significant, it’s pretty small, roughly a change of about 10 points. “If your total cholesterol was 200, and you stopped drinking decaf, your total cholesterol could go from 200 to 190,” Dr. Superko says.

This is not a monumental drop in cholesterol, the physician points out. “But if you have high cholesterol and you’re trying to get it down and you drink a lot of decaffeinated coffee, try stopping the decaffeinated coffee,” he says. “This can help.”

Monitoring Blood Pressure: Decaf, OK; Regular, Be Wary

In the same experiment about cholesterol explained in the above section, Dr. Superko and his colleagues also investigated the link between coffee drinking and hypertension. The scientists measured blood pressure values four times every hour for all individuals involved in their study. This time, decaffeinated coffee came out on top.

“In the decaffeinated coffee group, blood pressures did not change,” Dr. Superko says. “But in the group drinking caffeinated coffee, their blood pressures went up significantly between 10 a.m. and 2 p.m.”

“It’s not the end of the world. If you don’t have high blood pressure, drinking one or two cups of coffee a day isn’t going to do anything,” says Dr. Superko. “But if you have high blood pressure, it’s important.”

The doctor recommends that people with hypertension cut coffee and other caffeinated beverages from their diet. As he puts it, “This is all part of a larger, healthy lifestyle approach to lowering your blood pressure.”

Breakfast Drink of Champions? Coffee and Your Workout

Picture this. You’re running your first 5K in years, and you’ve promised your younger brother (who runs marathons for fun) that you’ll be able to keep pace. One hour before race time, you head to the local coffee shop and order a medium-sized Sumatran black brew.

Are you dooming yourself or doing your body a favor?

According to the University of Connecticut’s  Armstrong, coffee can be a superb pre-race snack.

“Caffeine stimulates your central nervous system; it enhances the force of muscle contractions and improves your power output,” says Armstrong. “It also impacts you psychologically; it makes you feel more alert …. it improves your mood.”

But to reap coffee’s edge, you must drink by the rules. Here, we review the latest who, what and when of java-juiced athletic performance.

First, the who:

“Caffeine benefits the endurance athlete,” Armstrong says. “It’s for the weekend warriors, the rowers, cyclists, swimmers and runners who cover long distances. It is not for sprinters,” he says. “It seems to have no effect on events that are less than 90 seconds long.”

In fact, coffee gives exercisers its biggest boost when the workouts are four to 20 minutes long and the intensity is high (a 7 or above on an intensity scale of 1 to 10, with 1 being sitting on the sofa), says Armstrong. But what about the world’s mellower athletes—is there nothing in a cup of coffee for them?

Don’t sweat it, Armstrong says: “If someone works out at 40 to 50 percent of their maximum [intensity], drinking caffeine is probably not going to help them physically, but it will affect their alertness and their mood, and this will translate to a better workout.”

Next, the what:

To be clear, what we are discussing here, right now, is a straight-up black caffeinated brew. And to get the perfect performance kick, the average 150-pound athlete should drink anywhere from two to three mugs of brewed coffee in one sitting, according to Armstrong. This averages out to about 300 to 500 milligrams of caffeine, he says.

But, when?

“If you are going to use coffee to help you with exercise, drink it one hour before your workout,” says Armstrong,  because caffeine needs about 60 to 90 minutes to work its way into your bloodstream.

And when it does, cue the Rocky music and aim for a personal best.

Coffee Dos and Don’ts for Diabetics

Science suggests that coffee can be both good and bad for your health, depending on who you are. Read on to find out who should—and shouldn’t—drink up.

Who shouldn’t:

James Lane is a professor of medical psychology at Duke University. He is also one of only a few scientists in the nation now studying caffeine’s effects on glucose in patients with Type 2 diabetes. “Typically, in people with Type 2 diabetes, there is a large and persistent rise in glucose after eating a meal,” says Lane. “This spike in glucose is even larger and longer-lasting if caffeine is present. So, it’s reasonable to say that caffeine and coffee seem to make diabetes symptoms worse.”

So what, then, is a Type 2 diabetic to do? Omit the soda and coffee, according to Lane. “In my opinion, people with diabetes should try quitting caffeine and see if this helps with their blood glucose control,” he says. “I suspect it will.”

Who can:

Other researchers are investigating the relationship between drinking coffee and the likelihood of developing new cases of Type 2 diabetes. A significant body of evidence—more than a dozen separate studies—has found that coffee drinking is inversely related to the risk of developing Type 2 diabetes. Otherwise put, the more coffee you drink, the lower your chances are of ever getting the disease.

Still, many scientists—Lane included—are hesitant to say that coffee really protects against diabetes. “Coffee drinking may just be an indicator of another health behavior, and this health behavior might be the real source of the reduced risk,” says Lane. For example, heavy coffee drinkers probably don’t drink a lot of sweetened sodas because they are too busy sipping lattes and espressos, he says. “And we know for a fact that drinking lots of sweetened sodas increases your risk of developing Type 2 diabetes.”

“We’re still in the middle of this,” assures Lane. “We’re still searching for the right answers.” But even with the science incomplete, healthy coffee drinkers still have a reason to rejoice. At worst, their daily cup [or two] of black brew is innocuous. At best, it will mysteriously safeguard against disease.

Moderation and Miscarriages

The harmful potential of drinking coffee during pregnancy lies in drinking upward of 300 milligrams of caffeine—or about three cups of coffee—per day. To be safe, Mark Klebanoff, a pregnancy epidemiologist at the National Institute of Child Health and Human Development, recommends that expectant mothers limit their coffee consumption to one or two cups a day or, even better, that they quit the java completely.

His recommendation, however, does not imply that the science has finally settled down: “This topic is virtually impossible to study [without causing some controversy],” says Klebanoff.

When researchers study the effects of caffeine doses below 300 milligrams, the results are even more is inconsistent, says Klebanoff. “Overall, the evidence for suggesting that caffeine causes miscarriages is really not very strong,” he adds.

Morning sickness is at the core of all this confusion, Klebanoff says.

“We have found that one of the earliest signs of a pregnancy is that you start getting nauseated,” he explains. “You develop strong food aversions, and a lot of smells make you very sick. One of the major side effects of all this nausea is that you just cannot look at a cup of coffee anymore.”

But feeling like you’re always about to hurl at this point in the pregnancy is actually quite healthy, according to Klebanoff. “When women don’t experience morning sickness, this could suggest that something is not right,” he says.

In fact, an increasing number of new studies have found that women are more likely to miscarry if they do not feel nauseated during early pregnancy. It is likely that these same women drink more coffee simply because they still have an appetite for it. In this scenario, Klebanoff points out, higher coffee consumption is the result—not the cause—of a miscarriage.

“We just do not know what the real story is,” he adds. But, given the situation’s worst-case scenario, and considering that quite a few studies have linked caffeine to miscarriage, why risk it, the scientist says: “Prudence should dictate. If you are a coffee drinker and you become pregnant, I suggest that you quit drinking coffee altogether or, at least, reduce your intake to one or two cups a day.”

Brewing Up Protection Against Parkinson’s disease

Oh, how far the little coffee bean has come … not 30 years ago, doctors blasted the caffeinated bean as possibly toxic and marginally safe. The good news, coffee drinkers, is that the medical community has since changed its tune. In fact, the latest science suggests that your morning cup of coffee just might help protect against Parkinson’s disease.

“The data is pretty strong,” says Alberto Ascherio, a professor of nutrition at Harvard University and one of the nation’s leading scientists in the study of caffeine’s effect on Parkinson’s. “So far, the research has consistently shown a link between a lower risk of getting [the disease] and a moderate consumption of caffeine.”

For instance: In a 30-year survey of Japanese-American men, scientists from Hawaii found that non-coffee drinkers faced double the risk of developing Parkinson’s when compared to men who drank just one to two small (4 ounce) cups of coffee a day. Even more, the non-coffee drinkers were at five times the risk of developing the disease relative to the study’s heaviest coffee drinkers (men who drank seven or more cups of coffee a day).

The link between coffee drinking and lower Parkinson’s-risk appears to be solid, but exactly why the relationship works is still a mystery, says Ascherio.

“In the animal model, when we give caffeine to mice, the caffeine seems to protect against [Parkinson’s] by binding to something called the a2a receptor,” he says. In the case of humans, however, scientists are still trying to confirm whether this same mechanism is responsible for reducing the risk of getting the disease.

“We don’t know the answer to that yet,” says Ascherio.

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brain bleeds, eyes redden, but i love writing still

January 27th, 2007 by golden-pond

huhuhuhu.. i was about to post this entry when a split-second brownout occured! i lost everything i typed! poor me!

and now i can’t take them back. and i lost the momentum to write as good as how i wrote a while ago.

well, i was supposed to say these things:

* we had an overnight at ieni’s house - the script team minus karl plus elli.. to finish the 2nd draft. we really needed to because we have to have one identity per character. writing separately as how we did for the first draft would again create a little mess of a script.

* jenn received the no-sleep-whatsoever award, while me and jean got the 10-minute nap and 20-minute nap awards, respectively, the rest had more or less 1 hour, elli had 3. she cooked our dinner together with ieni’s cousin. :D

* our motivation to finish the script sooner was to be able to watch Battle Royale. Too bad, we were unable to finish the script because we had to leave in the morning to attend to our respective commitments. So right after the TOMCAT GA, jean, jenn, and I, together with joanna (ma!), met to discuss and outline the sequence for the ending. We had a little debate as to who would die, if someone would really die, things like that. We were out of our senses and out of our bodies, but thank God, we were able to come up with what we intended to accomplish.

* mama picked me up in school, and that’s where we ate lunch, too (Carpark).

* when we got to the jeepneys, the whole time I was headbanging (at tumutuka na parang manok!) because I was really sleepy! Mama kept on “catching” my head to refrain myself from falling off. Every time I wake up, she would look at me, laughing. Surely the other passengers laughed at me… but whatever. I don’t care. The hell! They don’t know what I’ve gone through.

* then there is this one thing that happened I want to specify: while we were STANDING, waiting for a jeepney to MCU, I knew that I had a nap. That was the first time I was ever able to have had a nap while standing! I didn’t even imagine that I would be in that position ever!

* when we got home, I couldn’t help but sleep. I was able to, for 3-4 hours, I guess. When I woke up, mama told me that a brownout occurred! I was so pissed off because that just couldn’t happen at that time, when I need to finish the script which is actually due that afternoon! (so my apologies to manga, marco and loreto for not being able to meet it… I’m really sorry.)

* good thing, and thank God, the electricity restored sooner. So I immediately hurried to face my computer and began to type. But it was difficult to concentrate for our neighbors were having some “street party” outside – karaoke and drinking and firecracker-exploding sessions. I must admit, I was frustrated. I couldn’t help but feel it. I’m not the type of writer who could concentrate that well and that soon with a noisy environment and other buggers. But still I strived to manage myself.

* and I must admit that I’m not a fast thinker when it comes to writing, especially to conceptualizing. I sit on a story so much. I know that hits me both negatively and positively.

* playwriting is much more difficult than scriptwriting for film and tv. That is because in playwriting, you have to consider what all your characters are doing on stage, on the scene, simultaneously. That’s why I always ask, like, “nasan si Buquet?”, “nasan si Phantom?”, “anong ginagawa ni Madame Giry?”, etc. etc. besides that, time is much, much of the essence in playwriting. Telling a “complete” story in one hour is such a challenge, the same way that you have to get your point and message across and be able to leave an impact to your audience. Every now and then, you also have to check on consistency, to make the plot and characters more believable, and their actions, reasonable.

It’s really, really excruciating. But giving up on writing would mean giving myself up as well.

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anong problema ng blogger?

January 24th, 2007 by golden-pond

di ako makapagpost ng matino. sa blogger. ano kayang problema? wirdo-wirdo.

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naaadik na ko sa phantom of the opera. parang wala na kong ibang gustong gawin kundi ‘yun. in fairness, hindi madaling mag-isip, at hindi ko isu-sugar coat, mahirap talaga. pero okay lang, gusto ko ‘tong ginagawa ko. at masaya ako na naging parte ako ng script team. alam kong talagang chinachallenge kami ng pagkakataon, pero naniniwala akong malalampasan namin ‘yun at makakabuo kami. kaya ‘yan! kaya ‘yan! :D

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nweiz… napakasignificant nitong pinadala sa’keng quote ni adiebuchi dahil tumugma sa horoscope ko last week, na ang sabi eh ang araw ay nasa zodiac sign ko kaya perfect timing daw "to reenergize myself for this year."

on changes…

"i have always believed that in the lives of individuals, just as in society at large, the profoundest changes take place within a very reduced time frame. when we least expect it, life sets us a challenge to test our courage and willingness to change; at such a moment, there is no point in pretending that nothing has happened or in saying that we are not yet ready. the challenge will not wait. life doesn’t look back. a week is more than enough time for us to decide whether or not to accept our destiny." -paulo coelho

i love p.c.!!!

**God.. thanks po for giving me another year! for giving me people whom i love and people who love me! for giving me chances to conquer my fears, and to be able to swim beyond the shores.

**i must admit.. the only person who would not make my day… this day… complete would be… YOU.

**sabi ni Eli sa Maging Sino Ka Man:

"masama ba kung hilingin ko sa’yo na sagipin mo naman ako?"

ako rin may tanong:

"masama ba kung hilingin ko sa’yo na IKAW ang gusto kong sagipin?"

haha.. keso na naman.

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buhayin ang friendster blog!!!

August 30th, 2006 by golden-pond

Alas dose y medya ng hating gabi, Agosto 27, 2006. Kumalat sa mga txt, email, tsikahan?!, na makikita raw ang super biggie Mars sa ating kalangitan. Minsan lang daw ‘yun mangyayari sa buhay natin. Kaya ang excited na ako, kinuha ang phone at nilagay sa reminder, plus inalarm pa, para magising ako. Nagbabakasali ring makapag-wish. Akala mo ‘yun, mag-wish sa planeta. Wala na ngang buhay sa Mars, pa’no pa magkakaroon ng tenga ‘yun? Haaay…

Aba, pagdilat ng mata ko, maliwanag na… alas otso ng umaga. Ganda-ganda pa ng gising ko. Binuksan ko ang cellphone ko. Pagkabukas, bumulantang sa akin ang nakaligtaan kong reminder, ang di nakagising sa’king alarm: ang MARS… ang BIGGIE MARS… sa langit… di… ko… nakita… Haaay…

Wala na. Gone forever. Bye-bye BIGGIE MARS…

Minsan, may mga taong may mga bagay na hinihiling, at masuwerte sila dahil binibigay naman. Pero bakit pag tinanggap na nila, bakit hindi nila magawang panghawakan ‘to? Bakit ang luwag ng kapit nila, kahit gustong-gusto talaga nila ‘to? Ano kayang problema? Ano kayang kulang? Ano kaya ang dahilan?

Tapos, kapag nawala sa kanila, iiyak-iiyak sila. Manghihinayang. Maasar. Sasabihin, “s***! Sayang! Sayang! Bakit di ko ginawa? Bakit hindi ako kumapit nang maigi? Bakit hindi ko sinabi? Bakit ako nagpadala sa takot ko? Bakit ko inuna ko pang isipin ang sasabihin ng ibang tao? Bakit ako tumigil? Bakit ako nagpabaya? Bakit di ako nagkusa? Bakit ako nagdalawang-isip? BAKIT? BAKIT? BAKIT?”

Ano nga kayang puwedeng ipagpalit para lang makabalik sa nakaraan, kung puwede lang?

Bakit kasi hindi na lang nila itodo, para di na sila magsisisi. Bakit di nila ginawang ipaglaban ‘yung gusto nila? Para walang nasayang. Sila na nga ‘yung binigyan ng pagkakataon, tapos hindi naman sa tinatalikuran, kulang lang talaga sila sa kapit. Tsk… tsk… tsk… ‘yung iba nga diyan, halos mangitim na ‘yung mga tuhod kakaluhod, magpawis na ang mga kamay kakadasal, pero ang tagal-tagal bago ibigay sa kanila, minsan nga di pa binibigay eh, tapos silang pinagbigyan, may karapatan pang matakot?! Ang labo talaga eh. Ang laki ng problema nila sa earth!

At!!! Magagawa pa nilang lumuhod ulit at magpaitim ng mga tuhod para magmakaawa na bigyan pa ulit sila ng pagkakataon. Sa mga isip nila, malamang, “babawi na talaga ako…! Pramis!”

Talaga lang, ha? Eh pa’no kaya kung di na sila pagbigyan? Eh di habang buhay na silang magsisisi (hmm.. medyo O.A. isipin, pero posible…)

Wala lang… hindi ko lang maintindihan.

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Napagtanto ko ang isang malaking kabalintunaan (bukod sa pag-ibig):

(Para sa mga takot magkamali, masaktan, etc.) Sa buhay, masarap din ang bumabagsak ka paminsan-minsan, kasi sa mga pagkakataong ‘yun napapatunayan mong TAO ka. Tiyaka diba, pintor tayo ng buhay natin? Eh di ang bawat pagsubok ay magdaragdag ng mas maraming kulang sa mga pinta natin! Ang resulta: isang napakaganda at naiibang obra maestra. Galing diba? Kasi, WE ROCK! Kailangan lang talaga nating tanggapin na lahat tayong mga nilalang ay may kakayahang lumikha – mga talentado. Hehe, ang layo ng narating ng thoughts ko.

* * * * *

May tanong ako:

Kung magkaka-baby tayo, magke-create ng new life, diba gusto natin:

- pleasant-looking

- kumpleto ang katawan internally at externally

- mabait

- matalino

- talentado

- mag-aangat sa mundo imbes na maging pabigat dito

- etc.

…diba? diba? diba?

Ganon din sa mga crafts natin, gaya ng pagsusulat. Sa bawat sulating ating ginagawa, nakakalikha tayo ng bagong buhay. Kaya isipin na lang natin, diba gusto rin naman nating ‘yung buhay na gagawin natin eh magiging makabuluhan, ‘yung buhay na maipagmamalaki nating sabihin, “gawa ko ‘yan!”

Baby = Writing (what an association!)

* * * * *

Eto mga in english thoughts naman…

“as an artist (in its’ broadest sense), one has freedom at its best. He/she better make the most out of that freedom without forgetting, of course, the responsibilities he/she bears.”

“definition sets limits and boundaries.”


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thy craziest goodbye

January 6th, 2006 by golden-pond

Hmmm… i haven’t visited this blog for quite a long time…

It must miss me… Hehehe…

Nweiz… i just dropped by to formally say goodbye! (asus!)

To this blog…

My thoughts found a new home…

Wondering where it is?

Just around BLOGSPOT.

Hihihi….

Yeah, you might say almost everybody’s there.

But I’m not really doing it because it’s “In”….

But it’s another opportunity to be heard…

For people to see who you are…

And be able to share something in the world…

Which i really, and sincerely intend to do…

WHEN EVERYONE OF YOU’S THE SAME… HOW DO YOU STAND OUT?

La lang!

Thanks friendster blog,

“you woke me up from this long, and endless sleep….

I was alone….

I opened my eyes,

And YOU WERE THERE…”

Hahahaha!

(Si weng nainlove na ata sa blog! Hihihi….)

Goodbye to you

Goodbye to everything i thought i knew

You were the one i loved

THE ONE THING THAT I TRIED TO HOLD ON TO…

(Si weng, iniiyakan na ata ‘yung blog niya… tsk… tsk… tsk…)

This isn’t goodbye

Even as i watch you leave

This isn’t goodbye

I swear I won’t cry

Even as tears fill my eyes

I swear I won’t cry

(Si weng, hinarana nung blog!)

6-3-6-8-2-5-0….

Rrrrrrriiiiiiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnnnnnggggggggggggg!!!!!!!!!!!

“Hello mental hospital? May irereport lang po akong positive sa insanity… nagtatype po xa ngaun sa blog niya… kung anu-ano pong cnasabi niya… bka po makasakit po xa pag naglaon… hulihin niyo na po xa….”

(para naman akong criminal nito…)

“ano po bang pangalan ng hinihinala niyong mental patient?”

“rowena”

“ah rowena ba? E dito nakatira ‘yan….! don’t worry… tolerable pa naman ‘yan… cge, nagsasaka pa ko sa booger farm… malapit na ang harvest time… sideline ko… wag kang maingay, ha? Buhbye!”

THE END.

Or maybe not?

Who knows?

Ahhh…

HEAVEN ONLY KNOWS. =)

‘Til then….

My wings are assembled…

Gotta fly…

And watch reality wreck before me.

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“insensitive”, “stickwitu”

December 2nd, 2005 by golden-pond
INSENSITIVE - Jann Arden
How do you cool your lips, after a summer's kiss
How do you rid the sweat, after the body bliss
How do you turn your eyes, from the romantic glare
How do you block the sound of a voice
You'd know anywhere

Oh, I really should've known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face told me
Maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive, insensitive, insensitive

How do you numb your skin, after the warmest touch
How do you slow your blood, after the body rush
How do you free your soul, after you've found a friend
How do you teach your heart it's a crime to fall in love again

Oh, you probably won't remember me
It's probably ancient history
I'm one of the chosen few
Who went ahead and fell for you
I'm out of vogue, I'm out of touch
I fell too fast, I feel too much
I thought that you might have, some advice to give
On how to be insensitive

Oh, I really should've known
By the time you drove me home
By the vagueness in your eyes, your casual goodbyes
By the chill in your embrace
The expression on your face that told me
Maybe you might have some advice to give
On how to be insensitive
STICKWITU- Pussycat Dolls

Ohhh.. Oh Oh..

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
Seems like everybody is breaking up
And throwing their love away
But I know I got a good thing right here
That's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

I don't wanna go another day
So I'm telling you, exactly what is on my mind
See the way we ride, in our private lives
Ain't nobody gettin' in between
I want you to know that, you're the only one for me (one for me)
(What I'm sayin' is)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

And now, ain't nothing else I can need
And now, I'm singing 'cause you're so, so into me
I got you, we'll be making love endlessly
I'm with you (baby I'm with you)
Baby you're with me (baby you're with me, higher)

So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's all that counts
So don't cha worry about
People hanging around
They ain't bringing us down
I know you, and you know me
And that's, that's why I say (Hey)

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u (come on)
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u

Nobody gonna love me better, I must stick wit u forever
Nobody gonna take me higher, I must stick wit u
You know how to appreciate me, I must stick wit u, my baby
Nobody ever made me feel this way, I must stick wit u
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“fetus”

November 26th, 2005 by golden-pond

my inbox is enormously flooded with messages from

hale_music! [yeah, coz i subscribed! love the band...]

people there are just sooooooooo high…

unlike me who hasn’t posted even a single message…

hahahaha…

* * * * *

actually… weng is in confused mode right now…

and kinda upset?!

things come when we don’t need them….

when we don’t have time for….

and when we do….

they walk away…

they’re out of sight…

where do we place ourselves?

how do we compromise?

* * * * *

the past still remains a part of my being.

it always will.

but i’m in the present. and i’ll be in the future.

where do i go from here?

* * * * *

there’s this someone you want to show your concern…

you care… you know how to… it’s got to be easy…

but you don’t know why….

you just do.

too bad if that person is insensitive.

or blind?!

mabuti pa ang langit nakikiiyak pag nalulungkot ako.

mabuti pa ang hangin yumayakap pag ang lahat nakatalikod.

mabuti pa ang halaman marunong magtago ng sikreto.

mabuti pa ang tubig nakikita ang totoong ako, kahit hindi ko sabihin, kahit nahihiya ako.

* * * * *

it’s hard to be "one" when you’re "two". *sighs*

THE TIME AND A HEART, WHEN WILL YOU ARRIVE TOGETHER AT MY DOORSTEP?…

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“second chances”

November 21st, 2005 by golden-pond

kulay daw ng psychotic ang orange?
huhuhu…
our socio prof told the class…
am i psychotic?
what’s psychotic anyway?
hehehe…
basta.. for me.. orange symbolizes creativity…
vibrance… uniqueness…
kaya ’stig…
for everyone’s info… it’s the only color
that can enhance brain waves! hahaha!!
[learned that during my sophomore year in high school]

* * * * *
today was a good week-starter.
and i learned that if you will really see God in others,
He will speak to you through them.
He never ignores prayers.
He never leaves questions unanswered.

I have so much faith in Him,
much more than the faith I have for myself.
and i really do pray that if given THE CHANCE,
i’m gonna grab it…
may i ask for more?
coz i really, really have to learn my lesson.
give things a go.
and who knows, a brand new day awaits a brand new me!!! =)
BETTER ME!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! ^_~

songhits: a line from my super favorite singer-SONGWRITER
Michelle Jacquet Branch-Landau’s [yeah, she got married! and
already has a baby! She's my greatest influence in music] song called "DESPERATELY":

i missed my chance
and chances aren’t won’t be coming back to me

=> yes, the chances in the past won’t come back…
they’re all in vain…
but i still keep believing that God will give me "second second chances"
and more…?!
why can’t i ignore it?
i keep giving in but i should know better

=> yeah, i should know better… i’ve been there before…
i should know which to and not to take…
i should be better of being wise…
but i’m afraid, i’m getting better of being a fool…

wahahahahaha!!!
coz there was something ’bout the way you looked at me
and it’s strange that things change but not me wanting you
so DESPERATELY…

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but’s, what if’s… coz’s…

November 18th, 2005 by golden-pond
LAY YOUR HANDS
Simon Webbe [yeah, the guy from BLUE... he went solo... all of them did, right?]
Do what you do, what you say, what you feel
Do what you do, let your hands that can heal
Do what you do what you say what you feel
Do what you do, lay your hands that can heal

Sometimes life can be a burden
Tryna stay one step ahead
I feel the world upon my shoulder each time
I'm standing out on the edge
And my hopes have all deserted me
Like they washed away in the sand
And it's hurting my pride
Tryna survive
But i know i stand a chance

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

Oh baby, when I'm calling out
Give me love and affection,
Keep telling me, show me the way.
Oh, if you see me falling down
Lift me up from the shadows
Will you take me away to a better place?
And when I'm in my darkest hour
You're by my side, to turn the tide,
Until the suffering fades.
When life is getting me down,
getting me down, i'm close to defeat,
Come and lay ur hands on me.

Feel this road is getting longer now
And i'm too far away from home
Still I gotta keep on moving on
But I can't do it on my own
Baby keep my head above water
Help me swim for my life
'Coz the game is getting harder
The strain is gettin stronger
And I can only face the fight

When you lay your hands
Oh yeah
'Coz it's the only thing I have that still makes sense

CHORUS
'Til I'm healed again,
Rediscovered my strengths,
Those bitter blues are gone...
Oh, gone...

CHORUS

Come and lay your hands on me.

this is a nice song... uplifting effect its' melody gives... radio-friendly... basta cute!
* * * * *
Something's bugging me...
What and where's the sense of asking for something you don't know what for? what you're gonna do with?
It's really insane... 
Fear coming through... consuming every bit of wrecked veins i have...
Courage fading away... 
But it's not bad to take a chance...
In the end, it's either YES or NO...
If I won't try, I wouldn't know..
And it would only add up to those piles of questions that will remain unanswered [perhaps] 
for the rest of my life...
Maybe, it's not the question of if it's worth it... or what if it's a "no"..
but what if it's a YES?
Who knows?
HEAVEN ONLY KNOWS....
GOD ONLY KNOWS....
Well... let's see... it'll come when it'll come...
But let's not forget: WE ARE THE PRODUCT OF THE CHOICES WE MAKE.
* * * * * 
We can not always expect that things would come to us by their own initiative.
That's why it's jittering...
to find out the TRUTH after... [if it's a "NO"...]
coz that's the only time when this fact will really sink into our very souls...
TRUTH HURTS. 
But the pain will only go away if we would accept it.
But, sometimes, it's hard to do so.
Coz we hoped it's for us.
But fate can be cruel.
But then again, EVERYBODY DESERVES TO BE HAPPY.
EVERYBODY DESERVES TO BE LOVED.
The only question is.... WHEN?!
Yeah, for me, that's the thing. Coz there's something about the time... it's really important.... aaaarrrgggh!!
can't put it into words! *sighs*
* * * * *
Yesterday I learned...
the thing here in life is, and in ourselves, is that...
it's not who you can be....
but who you really are...
and being happy with the person that you are....
coz that's how you'll be loved...
JUST THE WAY YOU ARE...
* * * * *
Well, 'nuff said. 
HAVE A NICE WEEKEND 
EVERYONE WHO READS MY BLOG! 
HEHEHEHE....!
ROCK ON....!
PEACE OUT...!
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